Confession From The Weary

It’s no secret I have ASD – Autism spectrum disorder. More specifically, Aspergers. As you can imagine my life comes with it’s challenges, like constantly battling social problems, sensory issues, anxiety, depression, anger. Small talk to me is like being stuck in a tiny room with countless flies buzzing around my head. It drives me nuts! And I don’t know why, but I still get shocked and frustrated when people can’t see the obvious. Sometimes I just want to shout, “Why the hell can’t you see the whats in front of you!” But I guess, I’m not the only one with challenges.

As all this rages on in my head, I put on the smile, I nod my head and I play my part. I hide the undercurrent, because this is my cross.

I’ve actually become a master at it. Hows that saying go… A smile of a clown. Well, these days, I’m just tired! I wake up and go through the motions. Day in and day out. Some days I’m not fazed by putting on a show for others, but they’re becoming far and between.

You maybe thinking, “Well, whats so wrong about being yourself?” Nothing from my perspective, but for an on looker, I may come across as someone who needs extra help. I don’t! I have an higher advantage IQ. Not that that means much.

My point… I don’t need help, or be treated differently.

Most of the time I just want to talk about my theories, like why there is more depression now these days, than ever before. Or talk about what we’re learning from quantum biology. Or how within 24 hours I could change the world from hate to love. I have answers, but I don’t know how to share them to the world without breaking the rules from the tree of life, so to speak. 

Did you know…

  1. We are biological, electrical chemical beings. Do you understand what that means? These days there is a concern that AI will bring the human race to its knees. Some say we’ve passed the point of no return, but all I hear is noise! Fear and hate. But hey, it sells!.. Water is the key to life.
  2. Everyone in some way in the modern world is an addict! I’m not talking about drugs.
  3. If you take away the corruption from religion, you’ll find science.
  4. Words have energy vibrations. The same can be said about symbols, and every and anything within the world.
  5. Nothing, isn’t nothing.

“You know what makes a good riddle? One which is not a riddle. A condensed version of an understanding that is accessible to people with the right foundations.”

“All” my posts are abridged versions of the research I’ve done. Having said that, some I wrote for fun (9) in all. 6 of my posts will lead you to the 3 riddles above, and the rest where designed to pull me back to light.

So I leave you with this… Life is a game. Like all games there are rules (understand them), because they are the only limitation you have. There is a belief within my community that the rules are design for growth. Does this highlight the problems of the world today? Yes. Everything you need to know is within this post. You just need to do you’re own research.

Are you moving in this world, or is the world moving around you?

A cross is only as heavy as your belief.

Goodbye and good luck.

With love and blessings

Alexander Mandragon

About the Author


Researching science and spirituality is something of a hobby. Plus, it helps when writing my book (fiction). I love digging into the logical and creative side of life. I find it interesting and fun! It was through this research I came across my understanding of Karma (be it right or wrong). Yes I know, my blog may seem a little kooky at times, but I like puzzles, so… Anyway… I hoped you enjoy what you saw. Thanks for reading. Have the best day ever! Comments are turned off, sorry.

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